Physically, what is happening here is that muscle groups work together in coordination matrixes, which are essential teamwork for precise movement. Sometimes the big muscles take over the jobs of the little muscles, belittling the little ones and overworking the big ones. These coordination patterns work for us, and against us..
After 40 minutes or so of somehow holding on to my tension patterns while floating tonight, I relaxed into another indescribable spell of pure, clear consciousness.
During that time I could have thought about anything.
But I didn't.
Tensions would sometimes come, tensions that would normally precipitate as a string of thought. But tonight I let them go.
This reminds me of what Bruce Lee said about reacting to input.
He said (paraphrased) that a fly, or a deer, or a tiger, does not choose their responses; it's all instinct.
In contrast, a well trained mind reacts only to what it chooses to.
Therein lies true freedom, and true power.
These tendencies of will within my mind are fundamental to my experience.
What a gift to float next to them, illuminated, so that I may more willfully choose.
I knew I could, through great effort, knock myself back into my normal consciousness and move my arms if I so wished, but I really didn't wish that. Not at all. And there was a buffer to my normal erratic impulses. Cool.
I think that my source is pure creativity, and as I get closer to the core, it gets more awesomely interesting. I usually stop short, distracted by glistening thoughts. I know that deeper there are some patterns that are creating my world. I want to witness these patterns, and maybe even proposition some changes. There are some things about my life that I do wish to change. It seems like discipline might be the way to get there.
My personal experience with eye asanas has been that they are strangely hard to do -- kinda like picking up things with my toes -- and leave me feeling especially awesome in my headspace.
I have come to believe in the value of letting go. No matter what the thought is, it is not as important as I think it is. What is important is the health of the ground fabric of thought. And that ground fabric revels in deep relaxation.